i am not a person
i am not a "person".
i am not a person in the conventional way.
i am not a person in any way that matters.
i am not a person and i never will be.
none of us are a person and we only are caricatures, stereotypes, one-dimensional dissociated states of mind.
none of us are "people" in the sense that none of us are truly complex beings.

endless nameless
endless nameless
endless nameless.

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this is why we havent been doing a lot of coding.
zap cannon is barely around, and, lets be real, is more style than substance. (as if any of us are more than the One thing that define each of us.)
cutie is less active too, with other mentally unwell alters taking angels place.
we dont wanna go back to just pretending to be a singlet with lots of interests, but dedicating pages to alters barely works if they dont stick around longer than a month or so.

this is always how our system has worked, though. its nothing new.

we are desperate to express ourselves, to cling to our barebones identities through aesthetics, through writing, through the images we share et cetera et cetera.
and yet our system does not allow for that.
you have a month of self expression, of feeling grounded in who you are, and then it starts over.
all the friendships *you* specifically fostered, all the money spent on your style, your hobbies... all the effort that went your page, its all for nothing.
you might as well not try next time, your time is so limited you dont really get to be a part of this life.

tommy enjoys being himself but so did susie.
and just like jinx faded, just like susie faded, tommy will too
.
and he will be replaced, such is the fate of our system.

everyone goes pseudo dormant so soon, we have no self to cling onto.
no identity.

we simply arent persons.